From Discomfort to Disgust

I was at a job in town a few days ago, my usual detestable and laborious work, when I took a terrible slip, fell on some concrete stairs and painfully broke my arm. Aside from the terrible ordeal and pain of the injury,  then perilously driving myself to the emergency room, undergoing the distressful surgery and the tormenting recovery, it has also slowed down my newly gained momentum in my graphic web-content projects. One would typically say something like "that's terrible" or "I'm sorry for your unfortunate accident". However, now that the worst is over, I'm wondering just how unfortunate it really was.

Needless to say the accident has made it difficult to type these words and do I need to mention how arduous is the task of drawing with my working arm in a splint? My real question is why did this have to happen?

I received a call from a customer who wanted to have her windows cleaned and so, as usual, I set the appointment to offer an estimate. Something I've done countless times over the years without a thought and yet something was different this time. As soon as I put down the phone I began dreading it. I know from many years of experience and wisdom that the things we are most uncomfortable about or fear are probably the very things we need to be doing and yet this went beyond it. This was, and is, disgust. A revolting, repellant internal reaction as if my body was trying to reject a virus.

I arrived at her location non-the-less and delivered the estimate and sold the job but the problem is not solved. 

I started Dollhouse Windows as a lifeboat to deliver us from a critical situation and it's done it's job, and I am fortunate to have gone this long without other injuries but the time to disembark has passed. I'm no longer willing to risk my personal well-being for a career I never liked or care to continue. The goal of exiting DHW by this year must start not later this year but immediately which begs the question of what to do about my current appointments? It's clear to me I need to announce to these customers that I will no longer be serving them and give a firm ending date in the very near future.